Gotta squeeze out a post before I pass out from gorging on roughly 30 pieces of sushi. Thats what happens when you get all-you-can-eat for only $15. Blech, too full!
Cant stop thinking about my friend who is away right now. Hes out there, doing something good for himself - bettering himself. And I wish I could be the same. Im always stuck on what others want; why cant I figure out what I want?
Ended up in a familiar bed last night after a few drinks at my friends’ bonfire (grade nine wasted is a good way to describe it). What was I thinking? I mean, hes a great guy and I like hanging out with him, but I never meant to lead him on in any way. He looked really nice last night - thats an understatement, actually. But Im still obsessed with the idea of being with my travelling friend. I cant control all the feelings I have when I think about his smile, when we hug, when we kissed before.
And at the same time Im confused because another friend has come out of the shadows of my unconscious into my conscious mind.. as an option. A very attainable option. He has spoken his desires to me, and not going to lie - I like what I hear. So my question for myself today is, how do I choose? What are my options? And What do I really want?
Does anyone ever know the answers to these?
<3, Lyss
